This Is What It’s Like to Live With Agitated Depression (Vice)

Agitated depression—or “melancholia agitate”—has been described as a mixed state in which some symptoms of depression exist with those of other psychiatric ailments.

By Nick Keppler, Aug 15 2018, 12:29pm

For Steven, a “bender” began with a scenario like this: He would be watching a movie at his girlfriend’s apartment. Then the thought hit him: He had done something wrong at his job—or just something inadequate. Steven works in finance, in security and regulation compliance; there are always things he could have given more scrutiny.

“My girlfriend would be talking, but I wouldn’t hear what she was saying,” says Steven (who requested that his last name and location be withheld because he feared possible termination from his job). “I would just be thinking, ‘You are lazy. You are stupid. You can’t pretend anymore. You are a piece of shit and you don’t have a plan.’”

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